...peer pressure...

I gave in.  I really truly don't like diablo because it triggers all these weird feelings of ex's past.  but...I gave in...everyone was talking about it...and I wanted to see the hype for myself...so...i bought the game.  heh...

I'll give you a further review next time when the game's finished patching and stuff.  hehehe.  

excited to have a new game that I could play online with friends! i just bought a digital copy (i didn't wanna have another disc to keep.  (side note.  do you spell disc or disk?  i've seen it spelt both ways- i'm assuming one's british and one's american?)

does anyone here play diablo?  wanna game with me?  mmmmmmm

...Engagement Rings...

I was just thinking....would a rose by any other name smell as sweet? If a rose were called esor, would it not just be the same flower?  so by that reasoning, an engagement ring is essentially just another ring that features diamonds as its core gems.  

Honestly, if diamonds can be manufactured, then why are the prices for diamonds so expensive?  I guess the process to make a diamond is also expensive?  I still think it would be cheaper than mining it no?  I dunno.  It's expensive because of market caps and allowances.....but I'm not gonna go into that stuff.  It's a supply demand thing like making money.  Also, it's about the cut/ skill of the person cutting the stones.  but meh.  

By the way, YOU don't have to read this now.  YOU can save the entry and read when you're ready.  Essentially, I'm just bored out of my mind and lots of face book pop-ups were for engagement rings today.

I don't need big gems.  I'd be happy with a 100 dollar ring from people's: the diamond store if there were any I liked.  It hardly matters to me....But, I'm slightly picky about design.

I have some issues about rings i guess....

1) it doesn't have to cost an arm and leg (see celebrity rings for over a million).  As long as it isn't one of those rings from the candy turning things, i'm fine.

2) if you insist that an engagement ring must have diamonds to be impressive, I'd like them to be Canadian diamonds please.  If diamonds are extracted in Canada, why buy diamonds from somewhere else?  

3) ideally I'd want a blue diamond, but I don't care anymore.  A sapphire is just as pretty.  I want it BLUE like the colour of blood in your veins before it's oxygenated.  Why a sapphire and why that blue?  I dunno....Cause a red stone the colour of oxygenated blood kinda makes me think of evil magical powers (man, I game tooo much)

4) I don't like solitaire set rings.  I think they're boring.  Unless the band is truly very intricate and amazingly pretty, Solitaire rings are boring to me.  But that's my opinion (I can't believe I just learnt what IMO stood for=.=" btw).  

For me, it's more about the engagement.  I don't care if you ask me on top of a mountain, or at the top of the Eiffel tower, I'd rather have it be romantic and intimate.  Just not like Leonard from BBT intimate, that's just weird.  hahahahahahahahaha.  

meh....off to go look for something to do....soooooo absolutely bored.....

...picky picky...

at this point in time, I'm being way toooo picky.  I'm looking for jobs in companies and organizations I want to work in.  I want to go into an organization and feel as if I can actual have some loyalty to the company.  I don't want a job for a job's sake.  Don't most employers want that?  Of course, how do you put that into a resume?  nah, more like the cover letter...but if you put those into words, don't i sound a tad desperate?

This means I'm essentially doing a blind application, I have to spiff up my resume just that much more....time to reinvent myself through the power of technology....though of course, my words of choice do make me stand out of a page.....

So far, I know that I can do sales positions....Hence why If i get truly desparate after a year without employment, I WILL go into retail even for the time being....that is my LAST resort.  There are telemarketing sales which pay better than store retail positions...but see the note underneath.  Of course though, I'd willingly apply for manager-in-training positions at any retail location (preferably NOT clothes though).  My retail of choice is shoes and books...heh.  I'm silly I know.

I know I will NOT do a telemarketer position.  i WILL not in any way do this.  If my job requires phone interaction fine, but I don't want interaction between people through the phone to be the primary job description.  of course....that's cause i haven't seen pay high enough to motivate me to apply to such positions.  

Ideally, I'd really like to work in some employment center with immigrants or something! Or just working with immigrants to adjust to a new country would be my ideal job.  Unfortunately, the immigration sector of Ontario COMPLETELY slashed the budgets so alot of previously existing jobs in this field have virtually disappeared.  sigh.....

 Ironically, I'm finding jobs through the immigration job websites that still have funding.  maybe someday i'll get that job! ROAR!!!!! 

...day 2...

rollerblading feels so counter intuitive compared to walking to me.  I feel like the position I'm in is that of a skier going downhill.  Hence, no wonder i'm picking up massive speed at any downhill slope.....

Trying to walk led to the feeling of falling to me.  I must look like an idiot....oh wells.  The price of picking up a new skill.    

I'm wondering if i'll ever get any more confident at it.  But, at least I didn't feel too stupid trying to learn to feel comfortable rollerblading.  sigh

you should learn the gliding motions on the grass apparently.  all i'm thinking is how much dirt and stuff would get into my blades.  

I am getting a minuscule amount more comfortable being in them.  The searing pain in my foot doesn't hurt as badly nor as quickly as yesterday.  Eventually there won't be any pain I don't think.  

Today was just a totally bad day.  I found out my mother threw out my paycheque! I am SOOOOO pissed off, you've got no idea....ergs.  So in comparison, even if there were little achievements for day 2 of practicing rollerblading, i'm not seeing/feeling very accomplished.

going to toronto tomorrow.  almost cancelled on my friend today for this toronto trip.  why?  because i'm in a very foul mood.  but...tomorrow's another day, maybe it'll get better.

...tired...

why does a company call at 5:15 a.m?  I'm EXTREMELY tired and annoyed at waking up to a stupid company call.  but at least my mother has extra time to work now.  I'm gonna go back to sleep soon.  Starting to get tired.

So, one of my friends sent me a prompt telling me to "Write about 12 interesting people in your life at this moment today."

I don't think I'll do that.  The only reason I won't write about 12 interesting people is because I don't really know what makes people "interesting."  For me, people are interesting because we have fun when we're together.  Or we get along very well.  Or we could just talk for hours and feel like no time has gone by (technically, all these things are 1 in the same...but meh)

At first, I was going to do this sort of entry.  Then I realized something that my 12 interesting people were just quick job descriptions.  The job description part is probably due to the fact that I'm currently unemployed and everything I see at the moment is kinda job related.  But if you were to read 12 quick bios of people, would you find them interesting?  I'm sure you'd rather see faces, but as that is a privacy issue, I wouldn't post pictures of other people without permission.  If you read a bio, would you be intrigued?  Probably dependent on the wording of the descriptions, but how much can you get to know of a person without seeing the person?  

So far, 1 telephone interview.  After the interview, I was told the position isn't open anymore.  sigh.  Make me do a telephone interview for nothing?  boourns to that! But, at least they showed some interest in me I guess.  sigh.  

My brain is starting to turn into mush.....need to find a real job soon...

on a side note, my lower back is BURNING.  

anyways, my brain has no officially begun to throb and tell me it's time to go back to bed.  Thank you Internet for providing enough stimulation to cause me to significantly feel bored and tired