it’s true that many people don’t see the point in paid blogging.  Even I don’t really see the point.  honestly, if I wanted to go to wordpress, I would have.  But, it’s not necessarily all that simple is it?  The community that has been created here just isn’t the same as any other blogging website.  sure, you can have a blogroll with extensions to other people’s blogs, but how much do you really know these people?  I’ve felt at one time or another that I’ve gotten to know some people very well.  Though, I don’t know if others feel the same too.  I’ve always been on the fringes of this community- the floating stalker of people’s blogs.  I have never met the people I’ve subbed, but have I ever wanted to?  yeah, you really can count on me wanting to.  

with 5 days to go and a need of just over (?) 15k left to go to hit our mark, will xanga make it?  or is it going to be another social sharing site that’ll go down the tubes?  or perhaps there just wasn’t enough sub base to raise this amount?  I don’t think the latter is the issue though.  

I guess these days, to open your heart is like opening your wallets.  not everyone has that big of a wallet, but that doesn’t mean that they all have small hearts- some might.  like me, I’m in between jobs, trying to figure out what to do with my life- I simply just don’t have all that money to give.  though I did pledge because I really wanted to see where xanga would go.  

With this month coming to it’s end, I really do hope they’ll reach their goal.  I really hope to be there for the remake of xanga 2.0

5 some odd days until the fundraiser ends.  at 46k… just a little more needed….

Xanga has announced that it will have to close if it can’t raise it’s goal.  For me, I’m UNWILLING to see it close.  No, I don’t have a big subscriber base, but I have to do something- and it seems this is what I can do.

I’ve pledged! I wish I could afford more:(  though for me, $48 dollars is still pretty hefty for my broke ass at the moment.  But there is a one dollar pledge too.  

Although I really don’t blog all that much anymore, but hey! this has been 9 years of my life!  I’ve met my significant other on here! I’m totally not willing to let it die!  The xanga team doesn’t want to see it die.  And although I have never really met anyone personally, I love the community even though I’ve always been on the fringes.  But if I think about it, $48 for a year is less than a starbucks coffee every day of the week.  

want to to pledge?  Please go to the link below!  Even a dollar can help!  

https://xanga.crowdhoster.com/relaunch-xanga 

 let’s help xanga meet it’s relaunch dream! go go! 

it’s a tough world out there.  but i feel okay- other than the fact that I am working part time and consider myself unemployed.  I am reconsidering all my opportunities.  I will research companies that I can drive to to drop off my resume.  I still believe shoes to the pavement is still the best way.  why?  because it gives them a face.  but we’ll see if this’ll pay off.  I’m actually looking for a receptionist gig at a clinic or something.  BF thinks i’m totally too smart for this.  I too think so.  BUT, at least it’ll generally be a 9-5 job.  

My mother enrolled me in a weight loss program.  I feel slightly insulted, but I agreed to go.  

I do agree that I have bad habits that have contributed to my weight.  At the same time, I still feel completely insulted to be called “obese” as a 5’5 asian-decent female that weighs 160 lbs.  I generally feel good until i get called fat.  Sadly, perhaps if i were truly confident, i wouldn’t even bat an eye if someone called me fat.  My friend’s are too kind to say that “you’ve gained alot of weight.”  my sister, the nutritionist, thinks that the only thing unhealthy is that I’m a tad inactive.  

Perhaps a lot of people go into “diet” programs because they feel fat or feel unhealthy or whatnot, but I feel that i’m okay.  I just have to keep in mind that I will learn whatever I can for the 300 I put into this program.  Seriously, if i weren’t a member, it would be 600.  honestly, I just think it’s expensive.  And as i’ve said, I have to keep in mind that I will work at my hardest to lose whatever I can.  

“what you put your mind to, you can do.”  I have in my mind that I already said that I don’t want to change everything in my life.  anyways, time to research.

i bought a new laptop.  Rather, let me say that the parental unit has bought a new laptop.  I simply just took it for my own personal use.  Considering the fact that my last laptop is more than sufficient for whatever my parents wish to use it for, they let me choose the laptop that I would want.  Actually, the laptop is not the laptop that I truly truly wanted.  I limited myself to a certain budget.  So after buying the laptop and the warranty (which some people think is just a ripoff) everything came up to 700.  btw, these are canadian prices.  yes yes, if I went to the U.S, the price would be half of what I paid.  Honestly, the samsung series 3 pc I wanted was 299 on the bestbuy website for the U.S and 599 on the canadian one….seriously?  that really sucks!  (hopefully it’s just the independence day sale?)  

my father thinks that what i’ve purchased is expensive. I’ll give him that I could find cheaper.  However, unless I choose to buy the laptop that’s used or refurbished, it’ll be a little difficult to purchase the same laptop with my current specs for less than what I paid for.  Or maybe I didn’t do enough research, who knows?

Wanna hear about my pc specs?  well too bad, i’ll write it down anyways.  it’s an acer.  yes, roll your eyes all you want.  But I’ve had really good luck with acer laptops.  the first one I bought which was when I was 18 years old or so is still up and running with minimal problems.  A bit slow by today’s standard (since it’s only single core 2.8GHz from what i remember), but other than that, it’s still rather perfect other than tarnished silver coating.  The one I bought 3-5 years ago is running very well also.  Runs a bit hot, but other than that, it’s been pretty decent too.  This one?  I expect to last at least the same amount as my last one.  

Oh, so yes. This one’s only a quad core A10- 1.6 with turbo of 3.2.  has a AMD Radeon 7660G Dedicated graphics (not quite sure if that’s a good thing or not at the moment- I’ve always had integrated ones).  Has a 1TB hardrive with 10GB of ram.  I’m still wondering what the heck I’ll need 10GB of ram for.  Will I be running THAT many programs that it will require me to use up so much ram?  Or perhaps the windows 8 os really does require THAT much memory?  To my knowledge, this laptop is one of the first gen windows 8 models.  I might be wrong.  You’d think it would take me a long time to get adjusted….but after 5 mins….I can say I already understand why things are laid out the way they are.  

Although it takes me almost no time to get used to a new p.c and new windows o.s, for the life of me, I just can’t get how to work a mac.  Does that mean i’m stupid?  Or perhaps I just don’t have that mind to understand it?  Or is it that i’m just tooo familiar with a windows?  I mean, I grew up with windows.  Rather, I actually grew up with the D.O.S, but meh.  

oh yeah.  So I got into the beta of card hunter.  have you seen it?  It’s dungeons and dragons meets magic: the gathering.  I always thought that dnd and mtg were kinda dorky and nerdy….but if that’s the case, that’s what I am! muhahahaha.  Don’t think it’s for you?  well just watch the trailer, give it a try.  it’s free to play.  Maybe you’ll find that you actually enjoy it, or perhaps you won’t.  other than using time to play, it’s free, so what have you got to lose?  

Other than that, no more updates.  

Oh yeah, Canada day long weekend was ubber relaxing for me! oh yay!

i think cold calling is one of those things that everyone dreads.  Even doing a “cold email” can be something of a nightmare.  I absolutely abhor doing cold calls, but I’m slowly getting more and more accustomed to it.  why should I be afraid?  I’m a personable individual.  Plus, I really want the job and KNOW I can do it.  So what have I got to lose?  My dignity/pride?  Most people don’t just get handed jobs.  So it’s all going to be okay.  It’ll all work out in the end.  Mind you, I’ve only conducted 2 this time around for my job search.  The last time I did about 10….and most likely come off as sounding either arrogant or a complete idiot (or somewhere in between, who knows?)  

this time around, I’ve written myself a script for all the different people I may encounter while trying to reach the person i really want to talk to (someone in charge of hiring for so and so department).  I even wrote a short little message for the times I may get an answering machine.  I get antsy on the phone.  It’s one of my worst qualities.  Hence, this is why I write myself a script for a basis of what I want to say.  

Maybe I’m dreaming big when I hope with all my energy to get into a big immigration settlement agency.  But hey, if I don’t dream big, where will I end up?  I refuse to be part of the generation that can’t get good paying jobs or at least a job that I went to school for!  I refuse! I refuse! I refuse!

As long as I can control my nerves, I’ll be able to think about what I say and be the person they want to see (at least for the interview).  The problem is being given an opportunity.  What if I seem unappealing on paper?  How do I make myself look better?  There are tips and tricks, but I always think I don’t look like me on paper.  

Anyways, time to get ready for a few dozen more cold calls to agencies that I have to google first>.<