September 26, 2012

  • ...it's always my fault...

    I try not to fight, but sometimes it's really hard not to.  I'll have to bite my tongue really hard.

    Why is it so hard to be supportive.  It's not my fault that we don't have any running water because we had to turn off the pipes.  It's not my fault that I'm extremely tired and decided to take a nap.  I'm not gonna stop eating, I'm not gonna stop doing stuff.  We HAVE water.  Even if we don't have alot of it.  

    It's annoying.  I have to eat, so regardless of what I decided to eat, there'd been a mess.  

    We all have to learn to take our bad days and moods out some other way.  

    the worst part is that my mother goes, "when I'm gone on my trip, don't leave the house all dirty."  this REALLY pissed me right off.  and hence, I guess I'm writing about it here.  

    How do you explain to your parents that such comments only make me want to leave a mess?  How do I tell them that it makes me really upset?  How do you tell your parents to NOT speak to you like this because it makes me feel disrespected?  

    Now, I finally know why I talk the way I do to them.  Because I'm ALWAYS angry at them.  I'm angry that I feel disrespected and they don't know why.  Next time, I will calmly tell them it upsets me.  NOTHING'S gonna change if I don't do anything about it.  so....I'll start:P