March 9, 2012

  • ...another perspective...

    Did I tell you how bad my wednesday was?  I didn't did i?  now that i look back, it was all very funny though.  I woke up wednesday morning with chest pains.  I don't know if the chest pains were due to breathing funny or not being able to breath at night or just coughing in my sleep.  Regardless, the left side of my chest hurt as if i got punched a few hundred times.   

    On this particular wednesday, I had 3 assignments due.  So I woke up early, took the first train out to school.  Got to school at 7.  bought breakfast for $3.50 (my favourite meal in the school btw....even though their eggs are NEVER consistent).  So by 7:30, I was on the computer printing off all my stuff in the library (the library opens at 7:30, so i that's why i bought breakfast.  The person sitting right beside me had the screen up to make MTG decks (I almost tapped him on the shoulder and asked what type of deck he was building).  The main printer wasn't working in the library.  So....I had to run to the downstairs printer that is ALOT slower, and also alot further from the computer i was sitting at.  But eventually, I got it all printed.  So....yay.  Although I was in a rush, I decided the extra time to print was no big deal.  I decided that as long as my assignments were printed, that's all that mattered.  

    I realized that I needed to hand in my WSIB (work school insurance board- or something to that effect) form to the director/coordinator.  So, as I was walking from the library to the building of the program coordinator, I "sprained" my ankle.  It wasn't a bad sprain, just enough to have it throb for the rest of the day.  Elevated it while i slept and everything was fine the next day.  But DAMN! the instant I "sprained" it, it hurt like a crazy mofo.  That's when i started realizing I was having a really bad day.  The moment after i "sprained" it, the first thing out of my mouth was, "I REFUSE TO BE IN A BAD MOOD!"  You know how in movies people scream "why GOD why?" at the sky?  well I had THAT moment.  Except, instead of screaming 'why GOD why', i screamed, I REFUSE TO BE IN A BAD MOOD.  needless to say, people were all looking at me funny.  the guy who saw me sprain my ankle didn't stop to ask me if i was okay either.  but whatever.  

    So guess what?  I had a bad day, but I was still smiling and had a great time by the end of it.  I came home early from school on wednesday to sleep though.  Since it took sooo much energy just to stay awake till 12 when class ended, I decided I'd just fall asleep in my next class anyways.  so, I went home.  Slept the ENTIRE way home on ALL the transit systems.  I barely woke up in time before the doors closed at st. george station for the transfer train.  

    You see, normally, sleeping is my coping mechanism for making myself just feel better after a crummy day.  So although I spent ALOT of time sleeping that day, the moments where I was awake wasn't dampened by some negative experience.  Plus, I didn't sleep to make myself feel better from feeling crappy.  I was sleeping so I could physically feel as good as I was feeling emotionally.    

    It made me realize the importance of positive thinking.  No, positive thinking isn't about having fantasies and unattainable dreams.  Being positive is to be in control of what you can while everything else unexpected happens to pass you at the same time.  The only thing I can control when I have a day where nothing goes my way is to change my outlook on what's not going my way.  Hence...being positive in my books.

    I could have as easily been all grouchy and moody by the end of my day (also, having your parents come home only to yell at you for having dishes in the sink- while you are sleeping none the less doesn't help), but I wasn't all grouchy.  As easy as it is to have a bad day, it is just as easy to have a good one- only if you want one hard enough.  if you wear gloomy coloured shades, why are you surprised to have a gloomy day?  

    now it's really time to sleep.  good afternoon and sweet dreaming to melaughing

Comments (6)

  • Indeed, the positive thinking keeps the mental health alive. Sweet dreams.

  • you play MTG? you're awesome :3

  • @kev1nccho1 -  For me, thinking this way is definitely something new though but I'll take it one day at a time
    @pika_whoosh - yeah. I got the bf to make me lots of my decks. I simply supply the cards I want to use in my decks....heh.... My favourite deck is my pure artifact one, though of course, if you play a "destroy all artifacts" card, I'm kind of screwed.

  • @sabbygurl - eww, don't tell me you play an affinity deck ._.;; they're so omfg brutal.

  • @pika_whoosh - I don't know if you'd call my artifact deck an affinity deck. But what do I know, the bf made it for me cause I liked how the cards worked together. The main strategies rely on origin spellbombs, etherium sculptors, golem foundries, sanctum gargoles, and etched champs. I love the picture on the etched champ...he's my fave

  • @pika_whoosh -  But I also have other decks. I'm the type of person to make decks and keep playing with different decks. I don't really like switching out cards in a deck

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