February 5, 2013

  • ...bleh...

    I haven't been interested in writing anything for a long time.  I've been a tad upset for a while.  I think today I just hit rock bottom for feeling shitty for myself.  Sadly, this didn't motivate me to work out or job search or do anything else.  It just made me cry for a good portion of the morning and do nothing but mope around in the house.  I did NOT go to the job agency.  You might think my pride means nothing, but until you can say something to persuade me to not feel like a complete failure for going to a job agency, I can't go.  

    We'll see....I was just feeling way tooo shitty this morning....

    If you saw me today, I was like the episode of friends where Phoebe goes to see her dad for the first time.....stuck in the car.  Although she'd really like to, she leaves the car, runs to the bushes and then just runs back into the car.  sigh...eventually I'll probably go.   

    My job search is going nowhere and i'm feeling absolutely miserable about myself.  I just have to keep reminding myself that I have a job even though it's shit pay...A job is better than no job.  

    oh...btw, telling an impatient person that they're being impatient doesn't do anything but make the impatient person upset at you.  it makes me want to shake your shoulders and shout, stfu mr. obvious.  

    it's like telling the person freaking out to calm down.  generally they end up freaking out more.  

     

    sigh.  anyways, off to work.  

    bleh.