September 6, 2012

  • ...retail...

    I'm going from one retail job to the next.  unfortunately, it's not moving upwards.  I'm simply giving myself the possibility to move upwards in the future....key word being possibility.  

    instead of being flat out denied a higher position, i'm hoping to be able to move up.  who knows.  Most people don't enjoy retail.  For me, I don't really mind it.  I kind of enjoy it.  the shit pay doesn't bother me.  Of course, it would be different if I had other people to support.  However, I do not.  I simply just have myself.  I live with my parents, I don't have bills to pay.

    Reminder to self, parents still need to give back the 12k I lent them.  I'll have to start paying off osap soon.  

    It's not that I can't apply myself, I just haven't found something I like more that pays better.  Sure, almost every position pays better than min wage, but for now, I feel satisfied.  sigh....

    I'll have to head out soon.  I sprayed a little too much perfume, will have to wash it off.  

    okay, printed off a few resumes, my references.  even printed off my resignation letter for good luck on getting the job.  

    I guess I was a little to sensitive.  However, what really made me want to leave was the fact that I had asked the boss if he'd train me for an assistant manager position and he didn't answer me.  Instead, the convo led to him telling me that everyone's replaceable.  That I was replaceable.  Although in retail, this is fact, one does NOT have to tell me this as I'm offering myself to STAY in a position that he needs since his manager is leaving at the end of September.  If he wants someone else, just tell me no.  Don't say I'm replaceable to my face.  Although I am, it means you don't respect me.  

    I am not being as nice as my manager.  She gave a months notice.  I'm giving in my 2 weeks notice and that's that.  If I give it in today, IF i get the job, I'll be leaving Friday Sept 21.  

    yes, it is one retail to another.  I'm hopefully gonna make manager within 5.  We'll see.  Most people would be "why-ing" all of it as they know i'm a smart, educated person.  But at this moment, everyone's bitching isn't going to make me change my decision.  For now, I enjoy retail, even if it's shit hours and measly pay.  I feel satisfied about this decision at the moment.  Even when my parents can only complain that it's a retail, min wage job.  To that, all I have to say is that AT LEAST I HAVE ONE.  

    To me, satisfaction is more important than pay at the moment.  this will have to get me by until I decide what else I want in my life.