May 8, 2012

  • ...wandering...

    so I'll scour the internet, the newspapers, and other social networks to find a job.  Unfortunately for me, like many others, I am aimless and unguided.  I don't know what I'm looking for.  I'm more so interested in an organizations core values and environment vs job description.  Of course, I understand that I should apply to what I qualify for and positions I desire.  Sadly, I don't feel qualified for anything.  How is it that some people are so successful that they're unemployed for a week and get another job the very next day?  

    What is it that I desire from life?  I don't know.  The lack of a clear direction really sucks.  I think this is the worst part about being officially unemployed.  The lack of guidance, the insecurities about the futures all bear a weight.  As much as I want to live in the moment, without a job, future prospects look grim.  But for now, I'll do what I can.  

    I can't possibly move out even if I wanted to.  I NEED to find a job...one which isn't seasonal.  The worst part, at the moment, ALOT of jobs are seasonal.  However, just because a job IS seasonal, I apply anyways.  Boosting up the resume.  So even if I'm employed for 3 months during the summer, at least it's NOT retail and I'll learn from another experience.  

    Maybe I should apply blind to more organizations.  Instead of just applying for a post that's open, just send in a resume anyways.  I'll start doing that tomorrow...gotta scour the internet for all the positions I want to go into.  HEHEHE

    I promised the bf I'll do something instead of being at home all day.  I'll probably walk downtown or something.  sigh.  Starting to go insane.  whatever.  sigh.