these days are excrutiatng for me.  no, it's not like i'm sick or i'm in any sort of physical pain, but i'm fatigued and exhausted all the time.  i've been sleeping at 9:30 for two weeks in a row and i still feel unrested and gross when i wake up.  no, i am not pregnant, but i do wake up feeling like i want to throw up, head spinny and as if my muscles/bones ache.  i'm also finding myself either extremely hungry or without an appetite at all.  so i took the bf's suggestion.  i'm gonna make it a regular habbit of exercising.  not when i can, not when i want, but everyday.  right now, i'm just trying to map out a schedule to do this.  i'd rather exercise right after i wake up, but that's not possible as i couldn't possibly wake up any earlier than i do already.  i essentially just walk on my elliptical for about an hour.  so if i have to leave the house by seven, i could possibly wake up by 5 and exercise for at least 45 mins or even distribute it 30 mins in the morning and 30 mins after school....however, i am EXTREMELY tired after the course of the day.  one of the reasons why i'm hoping to get a job is cause i need moneys to invest in a better piece of equip:P  no more shotty, things falling apart elliptical>.<  but i should be glad i have it?  or else i'd really just sit on my ass EVERY DAY>.<

being healthy at least for the first little part is going to take some hard work and dedication.  i guess i'm jsut lazy and i've never really dedicated myself long term for anything...other than a relationship with the bf.  but i guess it's easy to stay committed/ dedicated when you see that even the bad days are pretty good.  i've never stuck with a program to see the results.  or i see the results and i no longer want to stay on a program. 

well i'm thinking that i'll start on a food journal again.  when i was actually concerned with writing what i was eating down, it became easier for me to stop eating, or eat at proper times.  but one shouldn't become tooo reliant on anything.  meh.....

maybe if i start exercising regularly, i'll no longer feel sooo fatigued.  if this continues to happen, i'll have to go to the doctors and get  myself checked out.  well...it has been 1.5 years since my last physical....it is about time that i go in....mmmm....

seriously....i don't understand why i'm getting headaches, soooo thirsty and lack of energy every single day.  blah....